Well I’m finally revisiting my neglected old Web site after a long absence. The past five years have been both rich and challenging, a time of losses and major life changes. Most recently, at the end of 2019 I moved to the Isle of Bute, and within a month of arrival my right femur broke and the cause was diagnosed to be Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma, a form of blood cancer. My leg was operated on and a rod inserted to reconnect knee with hip, and I embarked on a treatment of chemotherapy that completed in May. In July my oncologist informed me that I was in remission and cancer free, at least for now. My 2020 thus far has consisted of a month in hospital, 6 months staying with a dear compassionate friend in Falkirk, and now a month back home on Bute, still on two crutches as I work to regain my mobility. So a time of pain and trauma, grief, hope, love, frustration, fear, self-isolation (shielding from Covid-19), and a very real encounter with my own mortality and vulnerability. As many others say in similar circumstances, I find myself deeply grateful for this experience and for all I have learned, for the changes these events have wrought in me, for the love and support of friends. Among other things I have learned to ask for help, to let go of my attempts to control .. anything, to appreciate so much: each moment, the day-to-day of simple living, connecting with others, and this beautiful fragile world of which we are so very fortunate to partake. So much to say, so little time..
So now I am in a process of re-connection and slowly building some courage to emerge from the shell that has sustained me going through chemo and lockdown. My Web site gives me a medium for expression, to rethink and articulate who and where I am in a visible manner so .. onwards and .. onwards! 🙂